Left Field

Nazis of course are evil [+/-], but when one is engulfed in the ocean also known as O.C.D., Nazi as an adjective seems acceptable. Such as being very particular about your collections or hobbies, et cetera...Be that as it may, it does not mean you cook Hebrews in an oven, or attend KKK rallies. Things that are personal to someone are often treated with a different state of existence, be it physical, spiritual, or all points in between. So one adopts a "Nazi" like mentality towards dealing with such, and sometimes it overflows into places it should never be. As someone very close to me so aptly put it, "...being able to identify the irrational, and detrimental thoughts and not act upon them means you are fine..." And they were absolutely correct. Despite all the miscommunication, poor life choices, failures, et al; I am fine. I am nowhere near what my mind had planned for my future, my health could probably be better [Knock on wood...], but despite all the Tomfoolery, there are a host of things related to my existence that are awesome. My wife, my child, dogs, accomplishments I can be grateful for, people that did not suck that I had the honor of meeting or knowing, you get the idea...I am fine.

With that being said, I have a ton of knowledge concerning Dachshunds, and do believe the Badger Hound pictured above, knows something we do not...

"I like to make every ones day more surreal." Calvin and Hobbes [Calvin]

I am a sucker...I admit it, most likely here for the first time. I like the romatic comedy genre. Ouch, it's out there now, but it needed saying. I just saw The Proposal with Sandra Bullock and Ryan Renolds. I liked the movie a lot, and it came to me that I generally like the romantic comedies I see. The Sweetest Thing, 10 Things I Hate About You, French Kiss, yup I liked them, and that's not even the full list...someone needs to shut me down now. I think I have issues...but admitting your problem is the first step towards solving them...so perhaps this is a good start.

Sandra Bullock is hot. I also like Julia Stiles...god what's wrong with me.

Lars T.

A vacation from myself.

I miss NY. I know that I love living in Florida, but as soon as I get back down here and have a little time to myself I realize just how much I was actually doing in NY while I was there and none of it had anything to do with TV or a computer...it's odd. I was complaining about the fact that Malone, NY is like a step back to 1989 but in a strange way it's actually a bit liberating. There wasn't any need for me to get connected, or try hard to entertain myself on the "interweb". I just enjoyed being there. I read a book in the pleasant weather, went to the lake and relaxed and visited with my family. I actually took pleasure in cleaning my car...it's a whole different world up there and now I have to get back to the business of keeping myself alive here in Florida. I hope I'm up to the challenge.

I have a few ideas about where I'd like to go with my life choices and I know that there is a finite amount of time left for me to get things going, but for 13 days I didn't have to think about that. I just existed in a world that, though touched by modernity, still held a lot of the simpler pleasures in life dear.

Sure I checked my facebook a couple times, and emailed some contract work to my employers, but I didn't feel the urgent need to check my email 10 times a day, or make sure I looked at my facebook status regularly to see what everyone was doing. I started caring about what it was I wanted to do...and I think that translated into my looking a little closer at what it is I want out of life, and the means to achieve those ends...

I needed my hometown perspective to see things a little better.

Lars T.

Great ideas come into the world as quietly as doves. Perhaps then , if we listen attentively we shall hear, among the uproar of empires and nations, the faint fluttering of wings, the gentle stirrings of life and hope. -Albert Camus